Sunday, October 30, 2011

A perfect life

We do not have a perfect life. 

Would I be a real person to say that every day is perfect. We do not have troubles. It would be a lie! A sham. I have decided to open my life up for the past 6+ months as much as I can without just over doing it. I update my facebook constantly because that is a way for people who do not get to be in my life every minute the day to be there. I love it. I love sharing my life. I do not care what people think of me! I am happy, sincere, and just loving life. 

Why wouldn't I? I am not going to brag to say that I have the most perfect family. I have a loving husband that sometimes gets on my bad side. But you know what? We've came a long way since we started to date. We are so happy and content in our lives. We have good jobs. We have good family and friends. I am not going to say each one of our friends and family are perfect. We all our faults but if it wasn't for those people in our lives that accept us for whom we are. Than where would be? I do not want to compete with someone. My life is so much different than almost every single person in our lives. I love to see and meet new people. I do not expect everyone in our life to know exactly what we are going through. I would love them to join our world but I know that's not plausible. 

Justin is such an amazing little boy. He has so much love for his family. For his brother. He's spoiled rotten and I love it. I love how stinking smart he is. He is always learning. Singing. Clapping. He is always trying to be a people pleaser. And he reminds me so much of me. Sometimes it's like looking in a mirror and not knowing it. 

Austin is simply a miracle and I want to do everything I can to help him. I want to be able to make him better or give him the best life that I can give him. I am not expecting miracles. I'm not expecting god to change him so please do not think that, please. He is PERFECT the way he was born. GOD created HIM to give to us. He knew we could handle him. Not just any family could do what we do every day. 

Each and every day that I go to work, I think of my kids and family every day. I go to work to give my kids a better life. My husband is the same way. We want the best for our kids and won't stop till we are able to achieve the best. We worry about Austin and the next steps for him. We have to suction out his mouth and hope that he doesn't choke one of these days. We live in fear for our child's life each and every day. Scared that he will get sick and than that will be the one time that he is so sick that we won't be able to help him out. I don't know what to do sometimes. But he has open the eyes of so many people.

We have found some where we want to live! Or the area. We will have to see what is open than but it's PERFECT for us. Alex agreed with me on this and hoping it'll be another step up for our family. 

Alex starts to work 9 am till 6 pm tomorrow. Tomorrow is trick or treat and I'm excited about that as well.

1 comment:

  1. your an amazing and strong woman! I have a lot of respect for you!